To whom it may concern;
Maybe you are all hurting today, feeling ashamed of the things that you have done to people who cares for you. And I will not even try to console whatever guilt you may be feeling because that is how you should feel. Be very ashamed for it was not just about what you get but what has been given to you and yet you still had the nerve to steal. Be even more ashamed that you still surround yourselves with pride, not admitting what you’ve done. But instead, trying to make yourselves looks like the victim.
I feel bad writing this now. I know that it’s wrong to let someone feel how much you hate them. That even after a year or so you still hold that ugly feelings towards them. I thought, I have forgiven you but after seeing how someone I love struggle from what you did and of how its turning her into someone that I don’t like her to become makes me want to get even. It makes me think that maybe you deserve to be hated, to be treated this way.
Its hard to forgive someone when they don’t admit that what they have done is wrong. People, its not enough to see you cry, or to see you struggling your life now that you have nothing to do with us. It’s not enough that you are being deprived of seeing the people that you love or that you are being treated unkindly. It will break our hearts to see you that way but that won’t give us enough reason to forgive and forget. We will not make a banner saying ” YOU ARE FORGIVEN, COME HOME. WE WANT YOU BACK.” We will not plead. We will not open our arms wide open when you come to our doors. Even God when he forgives us wants repentance from us. What more for us humans? (Disclaimer: I’m not using Gods name. I’m trying to make a point, or metaphor or whatever)
Others may not understand, they may even tell that “Its just blah blah. Blood is thicker than watchamacallit”. The truth is, it is not just a simple bad actions that they did. Let’s say that they really have a good reason in doing it. But hey, when it happens to you, when someone you love betrays you there is never a good reason.
You see, forgiveness can never be given to those who ask for it but doesn’t openly admit that they did what they did. Face your own actions. How can we ever forgive you when you can’t even be honest.
There is more to what you have stolen, after all relationships are more important than any other things. I honestly can see that maybe one day we will come to terms. I still see that we can be in one room, maybe you will give us a smile and we will probably smile back at you. But.. it will be just.. a smile. It will end there. We can never give you the trust that I once graciously gave.
kainis na nakakatawa.
Bye mother. ;))
