To whom it may concern;
Maybe you are all hurting today, feeling ashamed of the things that you have done to people who cares for you. And I will not even try to console whatever guilt you may be feeling because that is how you should feel. Be very ashamed for it was not just about what you get but what has been given to you and yet you still had the nerve to steal. Be even more ashamed that you still surround yourselves with pride, not admitting what you’ve done. But instead, trying to make yourselves looks like the victim.
I feel bad writing this now. I know that it’s wrong to let someone feel how much you hate them. That even after a year or so you still hold that ugly feelings towards them. I thought, I have forgiven you but after seeing how someone I love struggle from what you did and of how its turning her into someone that I don’t like her to become makes me want to get even. It makes me think that maybe you deserve to be hated, to be treated this way.
Its hard to forgive someone when they don’t admit that what they have done is wrong. People, its not enough to see you cry, or to see you struggling your life now that you have nothing to do with us. It’s not enough that you are being deprived of seeing the people that you love or that you are being treated unkindly. It will break our hearts to see you that way but that won’t give us enough reason to forgive and forget. We will not make a banner saying ” YOU ARE FORGIVEN, COME HOME. WE WANT YOU BACK.” We will not plead. We will not open our arms wide open when you come to our doors. Even God when he forgives us wants repentance from us. What more for us humans? (Disclaimer: I’m not using Gods name. I’m trying to make a point, or metaphor or whatever)
Others may not understand, they may even tell that “Its just blah blah. Blood is thicker than watchamacallit”. The truth is, it is not just a simple bad actions that they did. Let’s say that they really have a good reason in doing it. But hey, when it happens to you, when someone you love betrays you there is never a good reason.
You see, forgiveness can never be given to those who ask for it but doesn’t openly admit that they did what they did. Face your own actions. How can we ever forgive you when you can’t even be honest.
There is more to what you have stolen, after all relationships are more important than any other things. I honestly can see that maybe one day we will come to terms. I still see that we can be in one room, maybe you will give us a smile and we will probably smile back at you. But.. it will be just.. a smile. It will end there. We can never give you the trust that I once graciously gave.
You are probably thinking of that person you are jealous of because she seem to get everything she wants even when she doesn’t really deserve it. Maybe you remember one of your relatives who keeps on dragging your confidence down or you remember that one person whom you hate so dearly. That by merely seeing their face in your memory makes every ugly feeling comes out from the ground.
(I lost the thought!! ohskype)
But what I want to say is, God is renewing our hearts everyday. He whispers slowly and silently something in our hearts so that it may soften whatever hard feelings we may have for someone else. Don’t lose hope that healing or forgiveness will not come. It always does.
We’re down to our last summer as students. Come monday, I’ll be able to see them again. I am hoping that nothing unfortunate will happen (again) that will separate us from one another.
Four years of friendship. They say that there are no permanent group of friends in college; on the…
we made it through (there used to be ten of us). These quotes are more accurate descriptions of what our friendship is like.
Boys never hindered us, because there wasn’t even one in the first place (hahaha). Save for Sheila and Mikee who has a manner of stalking their crushes. They still do it every now and then. We all have our fair share of crushes and sometimes they just end up being criticized (especially mine). Competition is not an issue among us because we always make sure to help each other.
But we did have tough times. Sugar coating is not one of our fortes so we tend to tell things in a straight forward manner. We’re a rude crowd sometimes. We also had silent arguments. One person would get moody with another person at the same time, and a cold war or silent treatment would occur. Still, things get resolved in the end. Know why?
We love each other. Not the cheesy kind of love. Nevertheless it’s something that gives me comfort, knowing that they’ll be with me until the end. It can stay like this, I believe it will.
P.S. My apologies Abe if I didn’t post a picture with you included. That is the latest photo I found. Don’t worry, you’re in our hearts. ❤
love you friendsss! ；))))) Nakakakaba ang enrollment na naman!
